October 19th, 2024

this will be my first diary entry for this page. i won't be posting these every day, just giving updates to my life as i see fit.

life is a painful mystery to me. is that edgy? i dunno. i feel like my "life" is just a string of one long event after the other...

first, i got diagnosed with arrhythmia. they don't know the cause yet. hopefully it isn't something bad. i haven't been taking very good care of myself the past few years so i guess i had it coming. i just hope it isn't too late for me to get back on track.

secondly, my partner has been busy. and stressed. and when he gets stressed he tends to distance himself. i love him and i'm worried about him, and i admittedly have a very poor track record with handling distance. i just hope i can support him the best that i can.

if i'm being honest, the people around me are the reason why i'm still here today. i don't have a lot of friends but i am tight with the ones i do have and i cherish them. i don't know where i would be without their love and guidance. truly the lights in the darkness for me.

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